How You Do It ???

sometimes I wonder how you do it.
How can you sit back and waych yourself
hurt someone so bad, and feel ny guilt
you say things to me, about me,or behind me
and you still look at me the same way
with those eyes of green searching for the answer inside me
you want to know everything
you want to know how I feel.
and if i'm truly hurting inside
you just have to ask
and I'll tell YOU
i'll tell you that you're the first boy I ever loved
you're the ONE who took my heart and locked it inside of yours
you placed my fingers in between each of yours
And in the end....
you took that heart and you shredded it to pieces
you could have just ripped it in half
then it would be easier to put back together
But Instead....
YOU TORE IT!!!
piece by piece you shredded it
And no one can fix it.
No one wants to
Beacuse they look at what you made me
a girl with permanent tears painted on my face
I am now just an empty void
there's no desire to want to love again
because now there's only of fear of ruining
what I have tried so hard to build up T___T

sincerely
( your secret admired)